Petite La Fleur

I'm searching for something that I can't reach I don't like them innocent I don't want no face fresh Want them wearing leather Begging, let me be your taste test I like the sad eyes, bad guys Mouth full of white lies Kiss me in the corridor, But quick to tell me goodbye You say that you're no good for me Cause I'm always tugging at your sleeve And I swear I hate you when you leave But I like it anyway My ghost Where'd you go? I can't find you in the body sleeping next to me My ghost Where'd you go? What happened to the soul that you used to be? You're a "Rolling Stone" boy "Never sleep alone" boy "Got a million numbers And they're filling up your phone", boy I'm off the deep end, sleeping All night through the weekend Saying that I love him but I know I'm gonna leave him You say that you're no good for me Cause I'm always tuggi...

Are you insane like me? Been in pain like me? Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me? Just to pour that motherfucker down the drain like me? Would you use your water bill to dry the stain like me? Are you high enough without the Mary Jane like me? Do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me? Do the people whisper 'bout you on the train like me? Saying that you shouldn't waste your pretty face like me? And all the people say, "You can't wake up, this is not a dream, You're part of a machine, you are not a human being, With your face all made up, living on a screen, Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline." Oh, oh, oh, oh, I think there's a flaw in my code, Oh, oh, oh, oh, These voices won't leave me alone, Well my heart is golden, my hands are cold, Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me? Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me? Do you call yourself a ...

Hello friendly interweb peoples! This morning, rather than waking up at my usual 7:30 am, I slept in until 9:30. Which was bliss<3. I decided to lay in bed and watch a few YouTube videos before coming downstairs to eat breakfast. Deciding to read Far Far Away by Tom McNeal for about an hour, I ended up getting distracted by social media (i.e. Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter, and Blogging). I also managed to organize my APSU email. Mom got home by 1:00 and we ate lunch together, chit-chatting. Afterwards, I started some laundry (I haven't done laundry for over a month, so basically, I had about 10 loads... Seriously). Continuing reading Far Far Away, that's pretty much how I spent the remainder of my evening as well as munching on some snacks and drinking coffee. It's been a pretty relaxed day all in all. :) Currently Listening To: New Americana by Halsey (Title of Post = Lyric)

Everybody wants to know If we fucked on the bathroom sink How your hands felt in my hair If we were high on amphetamines And everybody wants to hear How we chainsmoked until three And how you laughed when you said my name And how you gripped my hips so mean We wrote a story in the fog on the windows that night But the ending is the same every damn time, no, no, no We wrote a story in the fog on the windows that night But the ending is the same every damn time They think I'm insane, they think my lover is strange But I don't have to fucking tell them anything, anything And I'm gonna write it all down, and I'm gonna sing it on stage But I don't have to fucking tell you anything, anything That's the beauty of a secret You know you're supposed to keep it That's the beauty of a secret That's the beauty of a secret You know you're supposed to keep it But I don't have to fucking tell you anything, ...

I'm I woke up morning with a hazy fog, as if I was in a dream. Woke up in a really bad mood, probably due to how my night ended last night (awful, to say the least). So I sort of laid in my bed for about an hour, scrolling through social media until I felt strong enough to get up.  I was going to make myself breakfast, but then my mom said she wanted to make a big breakfast, so I did the dishes, fed the indoor pets, and helped with breakfast. It was good. Nice to talk with Alexander and my mom.   Mom got a package this morning from this French Company that she orders from, which had two gifts for me: A Paris Umbrella and a French mug!! It was great!!!<3 My mom had Choir rehearsal around 1:30, so while she made phone calls to Greece and showered, I got dressed in my new beige boots, a beige top, and jeans. (: You know what they say, right? Always look better than you feel, makes it worthwhile. "Whoever said money can't buy happiness didn't know where to sh...

They send me away to find them a fortune A chest filled with diamonds and gold The house was awake With shadows and monsters The hallways they echoed and groaned I sat alone, in bed 'til the morning I'm crying, "They're coming for me" And I tried to hold these secrets inside me My mind's like a deadly disease I'm bigger than my body I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons I'm bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me" I can't help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I paced around for hours, on empty I jumped at the slightest of sounds And I couldn't stand the person inside me I turned all the mirrors around I'm bigger than my body I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons I'm bigger than these bones And al...

You were red and you liked me because I was blue You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky And you decided purple just wasn't for you